What are you ashamed of?
what am i ashamed of...
well...hmm..
there isnt really anything in my life that there is to be ashamed of..
if i really had to say..i guess i would have to say my lack of religion...or belief
maybe my ignorance..when it comes to somehow understanding what it is...
i mean i have a fuked belief system
i believe that everyone needs someone or something to believe in.
that you do for others cuz its common sence.
help if you can..and what not..but..i mean..
im not devoted..or have in anyways given in..to.
any sort of hmmm...religion...ritual..or handed over all my belifs..
trust and virtues to any power that is beyond my comprehension
many do and i respect that..
but i couldnt really give in..and let anyone else take my life and run with it
i do believe in god.
i mean..i dont doubt him..i thank..
god for all the things i have in my life and for letting me have the ppl i love around me.
but i cant seem to give in to the whole spiritual-ness and going to church..
it doesnt make sense.to me..
forgive me father for i have sined..and then go back and do it again..
no way no how..
im not saying im pure..and dont have bad thoughts at times..but i would never do anything that would hurt anyone..
other than myself..which ive heard is also a sin...
like ppl who go and commit suicide...some do it on their own and others do it onto traffic..
which leads me to believe that sometimes we just need someone to listen..to our emotional blunders..
take a breather and tell us that everything will be okey..even if it isnt..
im not gonna say that i dont believe cuz i have this ill-faited life..
but..fuk...
im not gonna hate on those who have more than others.,,
but ha..maybe just a little on those who have their damn godgiven right and dont even appreciate
the gift they have inherited...for just have been born here.
and what anyone from a third world country wouldnt give a lung to be and live freely.
but i guess to be free and live here in the land of opportunity would be a trade off for the lack culture.
got off subject..
but ultimatly
i have to believe..
that life is more than the sum of its parts.
but cant help but fuken wonder..
what if i cant get the peices together in the first place...
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